I'd rather be with you but you are not around

I’m fairly good at not procrastinating when it comes to things I need to do but when it comes to reading a textbook full of commonsense information I find it a bit difficult to stay on task. I already understand that when immigrants move to a new country they are more likely to move into the major cities. This is something I need to read a whole chapter about? God-forbid I not read the ENTIRE chapter or I might miss something important though. *sigh*

I don’t think I’m ever really happy. I like to think that I know what will make me happy and that to an extent I’m as happy as I need to be but I cant help but feel that when I actually get what I thought I wanted, I no longer really want that thing. Grass is always greener right? You just think I’d have learned by now. Everybody wants what they don’t have. That’s just life. I’m so ungrateful sometimes. 14 year old me is SUPER jealous of 20 year old me right now.

96% of my Christmas shopping is done and I’m pretty proud of myself. The sad part? I think I’m most excited for the secret santa with some friends. Mostly because it will be a totally random gift and I don’t have any expectation in mind so I cant be disappointed! (I really really hope everyone likes what I got them. I tried real hard this year guys!)

Let me be the one to hold you tight

People are so fucked up. I honestly don’t understand how someone’s goal in life can be to destroy the life of another. Sometimes I think the best thing for me to do with me degree is become a lawyer. I don’t even need to be the kind of lawyer that goes to court all the time – but I just fucking HATE when stupid people try to manipulate and abuse the law for their own good. That’s called fraud bro. People in this world are fucked.

ON A LIGHTER NOTE. I have 2 more exams and I am done this semester. Taking Spanish 301 might have been the worst decision ever but as long as I pass the course I am happy. I’m hoping for an a- or b+ in Canadian lit.  A b or b+ in American lit and a b in urban soci. Overall decent semester.

Lastly I apologize for being MIA. School and work are killing me. Not that I have a huge reader base to disappoint or anything.

Couldn’t give a fuck about our old friends

I have not been to a movie theatre in ages and it is really depressing. I’m missing out on all the new jams!

Also fun fact- almost cut off my thumb at work on Thursday. I seriously could not stop laughing idk what was wrong with me but it was stupid. I just stood there staring at my bloody hand laughing. I love all the girls I work with though and could not ask for a better team. (Side story – We have a manager visiting who trains all the other managers and since we don’t have a real manager atm he is filling in. Well I work in OPS, which is the back, and I work there with a girl named Emma and another girl named Sara. Today the visiting manager kept calling me Emma and I thought he was getting me confused with the other OPS girl… nope. I remind him of baby spice and her name is Emma. New nickname for me. SCORE)

I hate Spanish. I hate it I hate it I hate it. I know I’ll be happy when it’s over that I took it but right now I actually want to get hit by a car to avoid my midterm. Any takers? I don’t want anything fatal maybe just a slight concussion so I can be exempt? IT’S TOTALLY A SOLID PLAN.

Wobble-dy wobble-dy wa wobble wobble

I wonder if I actually spent all my time doing homework and studying if I would be acing all my classes. At the beginning of the year I was so gung-ho to keep caught up with the readings and then when midterms came around I’d already know everything! Didn’t really happen…maybe next semester! But at the moment I feel like I have so many things fast approaching I don’t know where to start. Ohh well.

Working Tuesdays has killed my ability to see movies. And the fact that there are no blockbusters does not help this fact. During the summer I saw a movie almost every cheap Tuesday! And since school/work has started I haven’t gone to see any! There were so many good looking movies that I wanted to see! And now even when they come out on dvd I wont be able to rent them! I asked my dad about getting Netflix on our blueray but he says you have to have a “Netflix enabled blueray and that those are different”. I thought if your blueray had internet access you were good to go? Why this gotta be so hard! Maybe for Christmas ill ask for an xbox and then we can just get it on that.

I love my job. I really do. Yes there are days that I get home and think “God I do not want to work tonight” but in all honesty it is so much fun and so perfect for me. I just love talking about makeup and everyone that works there/comes in shares that passion. SO MUCH FUN.  Also being in the back so being a bamf that knows where everything is and people ask you for help all the time doesn’t hurt ;)

On my own too, fuck whose saying different

I have too much to read it’s not even funny right now. Sometimes I hate that the main source of homework I have is reading novels. You can read like 3 textbooks at a time (like one chapter here one chapter there) but when it comes to books I like to finish a book before I start the next one. Which means I have like 4 books to read this week. SUPER.

On another note I hate washing makeup brushes. My hands get so raisin-y from being under the water and usually I have all my brushes to do (because I just cant do them right after I use them that would be too easy). This means it takes like a half hour to do. JUST SO TIME CONSUMING. WAH. That's not even all of them. Took so long. 

Also with snow comes cold and with cold comes flannel sheets. I’m very excited. Those bad boys are going on TONIGHT. I just love Christmas season in general. The only thing I dislike is when you are walking around bundled up and then you go inside and you are suddenly DYING OF HEAT because you are wearing so many layers. Just terrible.

Take those fuckin heels off its worth it girl

I love the dictionary/thesaurus/everything app that comes on macbooks. I would be so dysfunctional as a writer without it. I think everyone suffers from that moment where you know the word you want to say but just cant think of it and that app helps me almost every time. Thanks dictionary/thesaurus/everything app! You da best!

Also new blackberry is a win. I must say I am so awful at texting I don’t know how I could live without BBM in my life. I wish everyone had it. Actually I wish everyone I liked had it and would always have it (which for the most part is currently pretty accurate).  The only thing I dislike is that my screen protector has an INFINITESIMAL bubble on the surface and it’s driving me bonkers because I am so OCD. Truly not even photographable but I know its there and that’s enough for me.

Lastly I feel like this blog will get no love because of tumblr. Though I enjoy finding photos that I like and re-blogging them there’s something special about writing down what you feel. It may not be very deep or insightful but it’s still nice. Maybe one day when I become an inspired English major I’ll write something substantial and put it here. Maybe. 

All of you haters say hi to it, I'm done

Fuck school seriously. I figured out last night at approximately 1 am that I had a paper proposal due today. Can they not spread shit out a little bit? Please!

Now you've been up and you've been down

I have succumbed to peer pressure.  Life stories/updates/makeup things/etc will remain on this blog but I will use tumblr to a) follow my friends and b) reblog the pictures I like =) feel free to follow me!

http://babysruh.tumblr.com/

I've given a lot of thought to the nights we use to have

yes.

She's my lady - case closed

A long time ago I realized that I don’t need to actually do anything with my best friends to be having a good time. I know way to many people focused around ‘what’ they did last night but I would much rather remember ‘who’ I did fuck all with. I’m perfectly happy sitting on the floor laughing at stupid shit and just talking. I also enjoy hanging out with drunk boys late night. Hilarity.

Ps. Paige Young ate Cheese Whiz by the spoon full. Just spoon -> jar -> mouth. This is not real life.

Pps. I was so productive this morning! Sheets changed, laundry done, makeup brushes washed, house dusted, bathroom cleaned, paper submitted. A+ for effort self.

When you love someone but it goes to waste

I have been a home-work machine lately. Well really just today – but I hate the feeling of being behind in a class so I’m glad I’m catching up. Spanish 301 prepare to be made my bitch this weekend.

Ps. New job is a plus! But I need to find more comfortable shoes - I was dying by the end of my shift! (Possibly because I was wearing my mother’s shoes and she is about a size to a size and a half smaller then I am but that is besides the point.)

Let me apologize to begin with

This is the story of my life. Every fucking time I get subway. Except at the one right near my house – they make it just right - BUT STILL THE NERVE THESE SANDWHICH ARTISTS HAVE RUINING MY SANDWHICH WITH TOO MUCH SAUCE.

Ps. I finished 80% of my homework and the Spanish friend did help me. Thank you for all the prayers that I know you OBVIOUSLY spent time doing.

She’s not crazy like me, I bet you like that

Its been 2 weeks. I am such a slacker! UPDATE TIME!

-       Firstly I got the job! 3 interviews and 2 weeks later and they offered me a position at Sephora. I’m very excited but also very nervous haha. Wish me luck!

-       Secondly school is lame. I just realized today that I have 3 things due Monday that I haven’t started yet. LUCKY ME. Can we please all pray that my Spanish friend will help me pleaseandthankyou

-       Thirdly I feel the need to rant about brown/black mascara. I accidently got the CoverGirl Lash Blast mascara in the wrong color and while brown/black mascara has its place it is not on the eyes of a girl who’s eyelashes are naturally blonde. GRR.

-       Lastly I have been sick and it sucks. My mom caught a cold earlier this week and she has been spreading it around the house and now low and behold I’m sniffeling up a storm.

 

Ps. sometimes I feel like I’m talking to myself on here. Makes getting motivated much harder.

You kept thinking you're coming up short

No specific inspiration – just playing around with my makeup.  Mostly colors from the Urban Decay Naked palate but the NARS Tzarine duo was also used.  Again - when I do my own makeup I’m not a perfectionist – this is just for fun =)

Ps. I’m applying at Sephora tomorrow. Wish me luck!

Lion's make you brave

School is soon. Blah. Not like I dislike school, I just enjoy summer.

Ps. Someone please make me this. 

Don't fuss over me, I'll be fine alone

I think my favorite thing in the world is when I say something slightly amusing and a friend replies with all capitals. “HAHAHAHA” just makes me feel like I am the funniest goddamn person alive. Usually it also makes the conversation 10 times better.

Ps. I got lost driving around in the south of Calgary yesterday. Most frustrating half-hour that I’ve experienced in a while. BUILDINGS NEED TO HAVE THEIR NUMBERS ON THE OUTSIDE. This is my verdict.

Pps. I have a hankering to buy more makeup brushes. Like a really bad hankering. 

See I know y'all don't hear me but she does, we does

I don’t really like chocolate. I’m not a huge fan of fruit dipped in anything. But if there is one thing you can win me over with it is candy. Sour candy in particular. And you could maybe throw a coke slurpee from 7-11 in there as well. Definitely wouldn’t hurt your odds. SO GOOD.

I'm strong on the surface - not all the way through

If you are unaware my passion in life is makeup and while I love to learn about makeup and play with makeup I rarely practice on anyone but myself. I decided it would be a good idea to document some of my practices and since my father has a very nice Nikon camera I have some somewhat nice photos to display what I’ve done. Please keep in mind this is all for fun and when I’m doing my own makeup I’m not at all a perfectionist.

 Inspired by the beautiful Lisa Eldridge’s new video on dramatic ‘Smokey Metallic Eyes’ (left) I attempted a recreation. (Please ignore the fact that I look sad/retarded in the following photos. I was trying to get my eyes the right way!)

Now while her copper is more of an orange base where as mine is definitely more of a red base and she made the shape much more winged, I still like the way mine turned out (especially in person!) The only thing I would change is the way I did my foundation. I am learning the hard way that no matter how I try to like it – me and MAC’s pro longwear SPF 10 are not friends.

ps. Someone please teach my father how to do close up beauty shots. 

pps. Also please ignore that these were taken in my dark living room at 9:30 pm.

Hey, bring it on baby, all your friends

I would just like to say that while I do not have a particular style of my own I have always liked things that either look very girly or very proper. I always aim to look super cute in what I put together but unless I’m going somewhere special I really could not be bothered. This brings me to Laura, a woman whose blogs I have read religiously since about 12^th grade. Now while I do not at all think I could pull off 90% of what she wears, I have always admired her ability to look put-together no matter what she is doing or where she goes (keep in mind this may be because she makes great use of a blazer). My example? Her trip to Stockholm where she wore the most casual-yet chic-yet classy-yet comfy outfit I have ever seen and while she unfortunately lives in the UK and 99% of what she purchases in not available in Canadian shops, I still like to ogle at her excellent OOTD skills.

Ps. Je vous manque Paige Young. Excuse my lack of language skills.

Pps. BC trip till Sunday. xoxo

Heart tells me trip to cloud nine, headache says that things just ‘aint fine

I love this. He is so wise. 

But my heart beats fast right now

The most common words from my 2010 facebook status’. 

Clearly Paige Young is an important person in my life. 

Come catch a feeling - It left a fire in me

“So what are you going to be when you grow up?” – This is probably my most feared sentence. Ever. I remember in junior high we had a substitute teacher come in and tell us that if we didn’t know what we wanted to do then – we would basically be doomed for the rest of our lives and I went home crying to my mom because I didn’t know what I wanted to do (and clearly according to the substitute this meant I was straight fucked). As an English major the most common assumption is “Oh so you’re going to be a teacher?” WHO DECIDED THIS WAS THE DEFAULT QUESTION? I WOULD LIKE TO KNOW. Anyways, I always just answer that no, teaching isn’t my only option and that an English major is actually more a degree in speaking and writing properly – and I think that being able to communicate will get me somewhere (hopefully).

Basically I have zero idea what I want to do when I’m done school. To be completely honest if I could have any job in the world I would want to work in the head office of a cosmetics line and work as one of the artists or with the development or even the advertising of the product – mostly because other then the people I love, the thing in life I am most passionate about is makeup. All I hope is that whatever I do I’m happy. Maybe I’ll become a novelist and write lots of books, or perhaps I’ll work as a personal assistant for a CEO. WHO KNOWS! But for now, I’m just avoiding the world’s scariest question one day at a time.

You can't hurt my heart it's been broken

Nothing can explain how much I miss this show. Nothing. SOMEONE PLEASE BUY ME THE SEASONS ON DVD AS A PRESENT. I WILL LOVE YOU FOREVER. I don’t even need them all at once. Just a thought ;)

This lack of self control I fear, is never ending

Do you ever work with that person who is in such a terrible mood (work related or otherwise) and just feel like turning to them and screaming? Almost happened about 20 times at work today. There is no point in moping about – it will accomplish nothing except manage to get everyone mad at you. Other then this I’m tired of my full time job. Tell me ‘that’s life get used to it’ –whatever- I still have 3 years of being a student left and you can guarantee I’m milking that for all I can.

Ps. If my fantasy world was real I would be a much happier person. Why must reality be so dull?

Pps. Confirmed by the developers – this is Boo grown up. Isn’t she pretty! Nothing I love more than some Disney movies and some couch cuddle time.

Can I handle the seasons of my life

This post speaks for itself.  I lovee you - lets make babies! 

Ps. Look at that sexy sheepish smile. Delish.

Bitches and gentleman; it's showtime

 On more then one occasion I’ve been called a bitch. I even had a best friend tell me “everyone just has that one friend that’s a huge bitch and that’s you”. Now when she said this to me I was super offended, like – really super duper offended. I even asked some of my other friends if they agreed and most of the replies were, “well, if you want to be yeah”. I’ve come to the realization that this isn’t a bad thing. I am more protective of my friends than most people can understand and I’m practically programmed to take care of people. So in this sense I think having the ability to see people for what they are and be straight up rude to those who don’t matter is one of my better qualities and people need to learn not to fuck with me.

Ps. I just painted my nails and did a terrible job with the newspaper overlay. Normally this would bother me but for some reason idgaf.

Pps. I used up the last of my comforter bubble bar =( lush trip asap!

Elmo, Barbie, her purple baby blanket

Get ready for an insanely vain post.  You’ve been warned.

So Paige Young, Kayla Fedorak and myself went out to Roadhouse on Friday night (which is amazing because I think I’ve had 4 Saturdays off all summer) and it was a good time. Some Red Bull, some water, some nice fresh house music. The usual. [Just kidding no house music was played =( ]

Anyway we took some photos and I have to say that 2 of them turned out to be really some of my favorites. (I apologize Paige. You aren’t in any of them. The one of us 3 I look like I want to cry in.)

The first one I love because usually with blue eyes all you get in stupid red eye and you look like demon spawn coming out of the photo which is never attractive- and unless you yourself are editing the photos, most people do not take the time to go through and remove the red eye of people who are not them. (Unless they really like the photo of themselves and don’t want a demon spawn next to them). Case in point this photo. There is finally a good photo of me where you can see that I have blue eyes and am not a red-eyed albino demon spawn. PRAISE TO YOU BABY-J.

The second photo I love because it’s candid, I’m looking into a mirror (fav. pastime right there) and I’m surrounded by makeup. WHAT MORE COULD I ASK FOR. This might be a phase and I could end up hating this photo in two months. But for now I really like the way it describes me.

Ps. I really need to find a small white desk and a small cushy stool to sit on for my room. So far bedbathandbeyond, pier1 and IKEA have all failed me. May the furniture gods please look down on me with love and send me a sign! Pleaseandthankyou.

I hope she's speeding on the way to the club

Today I went into my old work and it made me realize how much I miss working there. Seeing as my wonderful summer job is coming to a finish at the end of this month I’ve been thinking about whether or not I should go without a job until I need one and just relax, or whether I should bite the bullet and just apply for one as soon as possible and work less hours then I normally would have to. I was originally thinking of applying at Sephora. Why? Because if you know me you know that I LOVE MAKEUP SO MUCH. I really do. Anyways this was my original plan- close to school, useful discount, a look into the industry, etc- and this remained my plan until today when I went back into the Starbucks on center and was reminded of how much I liked working there. 1^st- It saves my family a stupid amount of money because I think my Dad drinks more coffee in a day then what we sold at that store. 2^nd I had an amazing manager who was always there for me if I really needed something. 3^rd The hours are good and super flexible with school. And 4^th You got to wear that cool green apron and be a part of something that everyone knows. Love it or hate it EVERYONE knows Starbucks. [The reason I left in the first place is a long and hate-filled story about a co-worker I couldn’t stand and a longing for more money - but he is LONG gone and while returning to Sbucks would be a SERIOUS cut in the cash-flow, I've made enough over the summer that this wouldn’t matter] (plus I know my manager at Starbucks would take me back in a heartbeat). Needless to say I’m stumped and don’t know what to do! Wah!

(Below is a classic day at work, just chillin' in the back imitating our boss)

Ps. If that wasn’t a long enough rant for you, here’s one about student center! I paid my stupid ‘tuition confirmation deposit’ on Friday night but because of the way banks work it hasn’t showed up on student center yet. I WANT THEM TO KNOW I AM CONFIRMING MY TUITION A’IGHT. LETS GET MOVING.

Pps. I hate when I embark on a renovation-type project and I don’t take a before picture. I know what it looked like to start but it’s always nice to have something to compare your final look with.  

It may be quite simple but now that it's done

Earlier this summer Alex brought me all of John Green’s books and I read all of them within a week. Other then her persistent suggestions, one line from Looking For Alaska is what inspired me to read them. Even though this quote is about thinking you are inadequate and unable to live up to the expectations of others it makes me happy. (Not in a sadistic way I promise). Whenever I read it I get inspired to find someone who feels this way about me.

This book was amazing and I know there have been talks of making it into a film but I don’t think any movie could capture this moment perfectly. No girl will fill the shoes of Alaska Young, but I won't mind watching them try.

Ps. There is an entire tumblr dedicated to this quote. That’s how good it is.

http://peopleraindrizzlehurricane.tumblr.com/